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Friday, 9 October 2015

Jesus says he didn’t have anything to do with A Course In Miracles - it was from the mind spirits.


Jesus, I was reading on a Divine Love forum discussions about A Course In Miracles that is said to be channeled material from you.  Did you have any involvement in it - is the material from you?

No James, it’s not from me, I had nothing to do with it, it’s from the mind spirits.  And if people can’t discern that when comparing it to what I did say in the Padgett Messages, then there’s nothing you can do about it.

I remember reading bits of ACIM years ago, and went to some meetings about it in Los Angeles, but I wasn’t impressed by anything that was said.  And especially not compared to the Padgett Messages.

It would only impress you if you weren’t sincerely looking for the truth of your soul.  If you still want to further advance your mind away from your soul, then it might impress you, as indeed it does many people, but it will only serve to lead you further into your wrongness.
    And unless people want to look to the truth of their feelings, so do their Feeling-Healing or Soul-Healing with the Divine Love, as we’ve talked about James, then nothing they will do will lead them closer to their soul, it will only advance their minds control over them.  Not even just longing for and receiving the Divine Love will help them heal their wrongness if they are not also looking to live true to their feelings.  That too will only advance their mental understandings of things.  It will affect the love condition of their soul to some degree, however the degree will still be limited by their need to heal all their wrongness by looking to their feelings for their truth.

Thank you Jesus.

Always a pleasure James.  It’s all quite straightforward when you understand the importance of your feelings and that it is through them, and only them, that the truth of your soul will be revealed.  And if you don’t want the truth of your soul, if you don’t want to heal yourself of your rebelliousness through your feelings, then you can read all the so-called spiritual, religious and self-help books, A Course In Miracles included; you pray for the Divine Love; you do whatever it is you believe you need to do, but none of it will advance your soul to Paradise.  And all of it will only delay such progress as you add further to your minds control over the truth that your feelings would otherwise reveal to you.
    I’ll speak to you soon James - Jesus.


These are my brief comments from a brief visit to the ACIM website.  

"The purpose of the workbook is to train your mind in a systematic way to a different perception of everyone and everything in the world. The exercises are planned to help you generalize the lessons, so that you will understand that each of them is equally applicable to everyone and everything you see.
    "The overall aim of the exercises is to increase your ability to extend the ideas you will be practicing to include everything. This will require no effort on your part. The exercises themselves meet the conditions necessary for this kind of transfer."

This is the introduction paragraph on the website, and in the very first ten words “The purpose of the workbook is to train your mind...” should be enough to bring up the barriers, to close the door on it, to go no further; or if you do, to at least know it will contain nothing about helping you uncover the truth of your soul, life and God through your feelings, but will have everything to do with TRAINING YOUR MIND to keep you denying your feelings and their expression, and the truth of your soul.  As if you need more mind training, that’s what you should be wanting to get rid of!  Our whole upbringing was mind training, training us to look to our mind using it to control our feelings and our feeling expression, all of which causes us untold damage.  To work your way through these exercises training your mind is only as Jesus said above, helping you to progress deeper into your untruth and move even further away from your soul than you already are.

"Some of the ideas the workbook presents you will find hard to believe, and others may seem to be quite startling. This does not matter. You are merely asked to apply the ideas as you are directed to do. You are not asked to judge them at all. You are asked only to use them. It is their use that will give them meaning to you, and will show you that they are true.
    "Remember only this; you need not believe the ideas, you need not accept them, and you need not even welcome them. Some of them you may actively resist. None of this will matter, or decrease their efficacy. But do not allow yourself to make exceptions in applying the ideas the workbook contains, and whatever your reactions to the ideas may be, use them. Nothing more than that is required,"

The course says, it doesn’t matter what you feel about the ideas presented in the book.  You don’t matter, only it does.  You as the young child didn’t matter, only your parents mattered.  They knew what was best for you, just as this book does; don’t question your parents, just absorb what they say, do as you are told and don’t answer back; just absorb what the book says, don’t question it and you will receive all it’s benefits, just as by doing what your parents said will make you succeed in the world.  Can you see how insidious the mind control is, creeping in making your mind become someone else telling you what to do, saying and pretending the Father says..., Jesus says..., as the spirits writing the book say..., as your parents said.
    “...you need not believe the ideas, you need not accept them, and you need not even welcome them...”  You don’t need to do anything, just be an automaton, have no feelings about any of it, be a blank mind, do as you are told and it will work for you.

"You do not walk alone. God's angels hover near and all about. His Love surrounds you, and of this be sure; that I will never leave you comfortless."

Angles don’t ‘hover’.  Is this supposedly talking about God?  If so, Jesus would never say something like that, he only speaks what is true, it gives a corny image of what an angel might be like, doing them an injustice.  And sure, “His Love surrounds you”, which doesn’t do anything for us in our suffering pain-filled evilness; and Jesus would tell us we can long to Him for it.


I randomly picked a few lessons to see what they are like:

Lesson 231
Father, I will but to remember You.
What can I seek for, Father, but Your Love? Perhaps I think I seek for something else; a something I have called by many names. Yet is Your Love the only thing I seek, or ever sought. For there is nothing else that I could ever really want to find. Let me remember You. What else could I desire but the truth about myself?

This sounds all very appealing, which is the problem with things like this, the spirits have crafted it with their minds using bits and pieces they have heard or read or come up with.  So many people think this is saying the same as what Jesus says in the Padgett Messages, so it must be Jesus in both and he must be saying the same thing.  But even though similar things as this are said by Jesus in the Padgett Messages, they are said differently giving you a completely different feel, especially when taken in context of the whole and considering all the information presented in both pieces of work.
    And anyway, what I don’t like about it is that it doesn’t really do anything for you, it won’t help you heal your soul of your wrongness, so it is all just more mind-food, adding to your minds control over you.

Lesson 233
I give my life to God to guide today.
Father, I give You all my thoughts today. I would have none of mine. In place of them, give me Your Own. I give You all my acts as well, that I may do Your Will instead of seeking goals which cannot be obtained, and wasting time in vain imaginings. Today I come to You. I will step back and merely follow You. Be You the Guide, and I the follower who questions not the wisdom of the Infinite, nor Love whose tenderness I cannot comprehend, but which is yet Your perfect gift to me.

This notion of wholly giving over to God because your thoughts and feelings aren’t good enough, again is so misleading.  It’s simply more of the same our parents said to us: give over your will to us, don’t you think and feel for yourself, let us take over, we know what is best for you, you can’t possibly know, you’re all wrong, confused, all mixed up, but we aren’t, we’re your gods and we know what is right; so follow us, don’t follow your own feelings, they are wrong, we are right, we know the way.  It’s not how we’re to relate to God, God is not like how our parents were.  God doesn’t parent us like our parents did.  We fail to see this is a False God, it’s looking still to our parents as being God.  If you do your healing by looking to your feelings for their truth, then you’ll be fully empowering yourself using your own will; and by doing so, will at the same time be fully honouring and living God’s will.  And you’ll be looking to heal all your parents control out of you, looking to heal all your untruth and mind control.

Lesson 234
Father, today I am Your Son again.
Today we will anticipate the time when dreams of sin and guilt are gone, and we have reached the holy peace we never left. Merely a tiny instant has elapsed between eternity and timelessness. So brief the interval there was no lapse in continuity, nor break in thoughts which are forever unified as one. Nothing has ever happened to disturb the peace of God the Father and the Son. This we accept as wholly true today.
We thank You, Father, that we cannot lose the memory of You and of Your Love. We recognize our safety, and give thanks for all the gifts You have bestowed on us, for all the loving help we have received, for Your eternal patience, and the Word which You have given us that we are saved.

Look to the future when all your sin and guilt is gone.  Don’t whatever you do get angry with God for putting you in the wrongness, for making you be evil, for incarnating you into the Rebellion and Default.  And let us all pretend that all our sins and errors have somehow magically - a miracle! - been swept away, nothing about how to get stuck into your healing doing the hard work of uncovering the truth of your Childhood Repression.  No, that’s all too hard, it’s so much easier to just read a paragraph lesson a day, to not think too much about it, letting it sink in and you’ll be okay.  It’s so ‘American’.  Just do the ten easy steps to enlightenment, and whatever you do, don’t do the seemingly endless years of long hard grind doing your Feeling-Healing or your Soul-Healing with the Divine Love.

Lesson 225
God is my Father, and His Son loves Him.
Father, I must return Your Love for me, for giving and receiving are the same, and You have given all Your Love to me. I must return it, for I want it mine in full awareness, blazing in my mind and keeping it within its kindly light, inviolate, beloved, with fear behind and only peace ahead. How still the way Your loving Son is led along to You!

Love has nothing to do with your mind - as in, blaze in it.  Yet the thing about stuff like this from the mind spirits is it is all heavily focused on the mind, because they are all living trying to progress their minds, believing the mind is the way to God.  And they don’t understand about the significance of feelings, particularly when in their mind mansion worlds they can so easily use their mind to keep their feelings under control, to keep all the bad ones buried, far more easily then we can in flesh.  And it doesn’t even make any sense this lesson, not to me anyway.  It just sounds like someones mind has made all this stuff up; and why not, that’s what we do making up beliefs we believe are doing us good, making up religions and spiritual systems we wrongly think will ascend our soul to Paradise.

Lesson 241
This holy instant is salvation come.
What joy there is today! It is a time of special celebration. For today holds out the instant to the darkened world where its release is set. The day has come when sorrows pass away and pain is gone. The glory of salvation dawns today upon a world set free. This is the time of hope for countless millions. They will be united now, as you forgive them all. For I will be forgiven by you today.
    We have forgiven one another now, and so we come at last to You again. Father, Your Son, who never left, returns to Heaven and his home. How glad are we to have our sanity restored to us, and to remember that we all are one.

Yes, yes, the whole forgiveness thing is so tedious.  How can you forgive someone when you’re full of repressed anger that you don’t even know about?  When you’re still furious about how your parents treated you, filled with vile rage and putridness that is waiting for you to express and finally bring to light.  It’s all just more feeling-denial, use your mind to subdue your bad feelings so much so that you believe you no longer have them.  Use your mind to forgive and you are set free, you are saving yourself, salvation is at hand... yeah, yeah, we’ve heard it all before, the Bible’s full of it, and has it helped humanity before - so will it help humanity now?  No, just more of the same old same old, just presented in a different way.  And it can’t be any other way because it’s all coming from the spirits in the mind mansion worlds, the spirits who refuse to look to their feelings for their truth, who still persist in living untrue to themselves, making up all this rubbish about the Father and the Son, not actually uncovering the truth of their soul and advancing through the Feeling Healing mind worlds into becoming a Celestial spirit having healed themselves of all their wrongness.

Lesson 306
The gift of Christ is all I seek today.
What but Christ's vision would I use today, when it can offer me a day in which I see a world so like to Heaven that an ancient memory returns to me? Today I can forget the world I made. Today I can go past all fear, and be restored to love and holiness and peace. Today I am redeemed, and born anew into a world of mercy and of care; of loving kindness and the peace of God.
    And so, our Father, we return to You, remembering we never went away; remembering Your holy gifts to us. In gratitude and thankfulness we come, with empty hands and open hearts and minds, asking but what You give. We cannot make an offering sufficient for Your Son. But in Your Love the gift of Christ is his.

It always sounds so easy, “today I can forget the world I made”, “today I can go past all fear”, but you can’t, how do you go past all fear - by using your mind?  It never tells you how to achieve such things because they are meaningless things only giving false hope.  And those people who reckon it has worked for them have only succeeded in adding yet more layers to their feeling-denial - so some success!  They won’t feel too successful when it all comes rushing back, flooding them with all their repressed bad feelings.

Lesson 350
Miracles mirror God's eternal Love.
To offer them is to remember Him,
And through His memory to save the world.
What we forgive becomes a part of us, as we perceive ourselves. The Son of God incorporates all things within himself as You created him. Your memory depends on his forgiveness. What he is, is unaffected by his thoughts. But what he looks upon is their direct result. Therefore, my Father, I would turn to You. Only Your memory will set me free. And only my forgiveness teaches me to let Your memory return to me, and give it to the world in thankfulness.
And as we gather miracles from Him, we will indeed be grateful. For as we remember Him, His Son will be restored to us in the reality of Love.

“Only Your memory will set me free”, I have no idea what this means, is it that if we can somehow remember God (another mind thing to do), we’ll be healed?  Or does it mean that somehow God’s memory will set us free - whatever that might mean?  And again, you’ve got to forgive so the memory of God will come back so you’ll be free.  But why do we have to forgive when God has made us be evil, we didn’t do it on purpose, we had no choice in it.  If anything God should be saying sorry to us for putting us through all our suffering and making us feel so miserable.  Again it’s just the parents blaming the children for being wrong and not blaming themselves.  So many children when they grow up and become parents themselves say they come to realise how horrible they were as children, that they had no idea how much pain they caused their parents, that now they are parents they see that themselves as children were bad and should seek their parents forgiveness.  So once again it’s projecting ones parents onto God, it’s not God our real Heavenly Mother and Father - it’s god the parents who are at fault.  Our parents made us suffer, they should be coming to us and apologising, not the other way around.

And Jesus would never give us a course, life can’t be lived like a course.  Feelings can’t be put into a course.  Life is dynamic and our feelings are always changing, we are not meant to live confined to the rigid never changing paradigm of our minds.  We’ve all been made to lock our minds in place, and within that prison structure, introducing yet another structure such as the ACIM is only going to make things worse.  You can’t make up a course that says this is how you are live life through your feelings, looking to them to uncover their truth.  That’s the beauty of it, and the beauty of Divine Love Spirituality, it can’t be reduced into a course, everyone has to work out how to express their feelings looking to them for their truth, themselves.  Of course people can teach and help understand what it’s all about, and even do certain aspects of teaching feeling-expression, but in the end it all comes back to our doing it ourselves for ourselves, all because we want to be true, and truly living expressing our soul to God.

Having written this post it’s now become very clear to me that all what people and mind spirits attribute to God is really only their parents.  Our parents are the gods, and at the back of them, really it’s the orchestrators of the Rebellion and Default who are pretending to be the Mother and Father, Jesus and Mary Magdalene.  It’s the Lucifers, Satans, Caligastias and Dalgastias, they are Evil Ones who have stepped in in place of our Heavenly Mother and Father, the Eternal Son and Infinite Daughter.
    So all the Gods and the Father and Jesus that religion and A Course In Miracles are aspiring to be at-one with, are really just peoples parents and these higher unseen rebellious spirits.  The only way we can truly be at-one with God our Divine and Heavenly Mother and Father is by doing our healing, by looking to our feelings and their truth to liberate us from the control of our minds.
    So in reading A Course In Miracles, were you to replace the words Father and Son with your parents, then you’d get closer to the truth of where it’s really coming from.

    And I wonder if the mind spirits who contrived such a course have any idea that they are wrongly seeing God, that they are projecting all they attribute to their parents, and mostly to fantasy parents at that, to the ‘Father’.  I don’t know, but I suppose they don’t, because if they did, surely they’d understand they were only making things worse for their own soul development.  The Evil Ones would know, they are purposefully rebelling, but I’d reckon they’d keep the mind spirits in the dark.

Sunday, 4 October 2015

This is the right way humanity is to evolve into a True World Order with one religion: the Religion of Truth. Currently we’re trying to do it the wrong way progressively becoming more evil and more unhappy.


The New World Order is looking to evolve humanity deeper into its evilness with the introduction of One World Religion.  The Religion of Truth is the right way for humanity to live happily and peacefully together.

Truth is the underlying structure of Creation.  We are truth-revealing souls, which means we have been created to uncover and reveal the truth of Creation to ourselves, and all through our own experiences.  We are to find out the truth of ourselves, life, nature and God ourselves, we are not to have any system of beliefs or ideals imposed upon us.

If we were all living true to our soul, then daily through our experiences we’d naturally evolve and grow in truth.  And as we expressed and lived that truth we’d all naturally live peacefully and harmoniously together because we’d all be discovering the same truths of Creation, the same truths of love, all being able to live sharing our discoveries together.

If people were living true to their souls, then even if they lived in completely different parts of the world never interacting they would still evolve the same truths, so if they did come together they’d all be able to happily live together being able to share the same understandings and ideas about live, all through common truths.

Humanity is ultimately to evolve into one homogenised whole, all living the same levels of truth, or if different levels, at least all understanding that people are merely at different levels on their way through to the same higher levels of truth.  This being what could be called a True World Order, that order being based on Truth, with nothing manmade and controlled by the minds of those seeking control over others.  Truth doesn’t control, it is just as it is, and if we all lived true to the Truth, then no one would want to control anyone or any creature.

The New World Order that’s being imposed on humanity currently is not based on the Truth, it is everything but the truth, it is anti-truth, it being completely contrived by minds of men and women and unseen mind spirits who want to have complete control over humanity.  It is an evolution of wrongness, of truth-denial, it is completely evil and the wrong way to live.  It is creativity-destroying, ruining the self-expression of the individual as he and she are made to conform to the artificial sameness, and decreasing all chance of ever being able to live free to oneself, wholly living true to ones soul.

A part of the strategy of the NWO is the creation of One World Religion, something that will be a united from of the existing major religions, something that can be used as the ultimate tool of control over people supposedly wanting to live and be at-one with God.  The True one world religion won’t even need to have a format or be defined by religious beliefs, people won’t have to adhere to or practice it, it will simply be the natural ongoing and evolving expression of truth, therefore, if it is to be called anything, it could be called: The Religion of Truth.

When we understand that humanity was forced a long time ago to rebel against truth, forced to live against its natural way, forced to adopt contrived ‘ways’ to God - false religions of untruth, all of which are now so heavily ingrained in us being passed down from generation to generation, then we can see how any hope of peace and world harmony through an imposed NWO or One World Religion will only cause more problems than we already have.  To become more evil and wrong that we already are, to deny the truth of our souls to even an greater extent, means yet more civil and social unrest, more wars, more Big Brother control, more loss of what it really is to be human and a truth-loving and truth-revealing soul.

To extract ourselves from the existing over-control, we can look to our feelings, for our feelings are the way to uncover and reveal the truth our soul wants us to live.  But to do this is hard because it then means we have to confront and accept and deal with all our hidden inner programming of truth and feeling denial.  But as the truth is now being revealed as to how people can actually live truth to themselves by using their feelings, so it is possible to do the hard work and completely set yourself free of the Rebellion and Default that we’re all living under.

To do your Feeling-Healing or Soul-Healing with the Divine Love is the only way I know of that will bring you back to your true self and heal you of all your truth denial and all that’s resulted from it.  It’s a long healing process as you have to go back and look at all the unloving interactions with your parents throughout your forming years, seeing how they interfered with you and stopped you from freely and truly expressing all your felt.

It was our parents and early carers that negatively influenced us making us turn away from the truth our soul was trying to show us.  However the damage has been done, but it can be healed.  Humanity is yet to understand about how to heal its rebellion and default by looking to ones feelings for their truth.  But when it does, and when more people are striving to be true, then they will come together understanding the truths they are revealing to themselves through their feelings, and understanding that they are being led the right way by their soul in life.  And this is and will be a whole New Way to live on Earth, something that’s eluded us because we’ve all been heavily inducted into the truth-denying and truth-rejecting systems we call our religions and spiritual systems.


So irrespective of the amount of spiritual work you’ve done on yourself, and irrespective of the amount of healing you’ve achieved, if you are still not looking solely to your feelings for the truth they are to show you, then you have more work to do.  To understand about doing your Feeling-Healing or Soul-Healing and Childhood Repression, and what generally living a life of ongoing truth-revelation is all about, you are most welcome to visit my websites and forum.

Friday, 2 October 2015

“It’s not the parents who are to blame, it’s society”. It’s not the parents fault that their young teenage daughters are suffering so much, it’s someone else’s fault. Childhood Repression.


Marion and I read all the time parents saying that now they have their own children they feel so sorry for all the trouble they caused their parents.  And they excuse their parents for treating them badly because they had no idea what it’s like being a parent.  So once again the parents are excused from having to take any responsibility for the very people, their children, who they hurt and caused so much pain.  The parents are always right; the child is always wrong - so says our evilness.  And nothing will ever change until we understand the reverse of this: that a young child can’t be wrong, that it’s always its parents that are to blame.

Marion was reading about an American psychologist who was trying to understand why so many teenage girls in America were having so many problems.  The woman said she’d read and loved all of Alice Miller’s work, with Alice saying, as she does very clearing and many times, that IT’S ALWAYS THE PARENTS FAULT WHY THE CHILDREN SUFFER AND HAVE THE PROBLEMS THEY DO, and then went on to say that even though she agreed with this, it was really society that was the problem and not the parents.  So yet here again was a professional with the evidence staring her in the face with so many young girls with such extreme self-worth and self-esteem problems, and even armed with the truth from Alice, still choosing to let the parents off the hook by blaming society.  When as Marion says, who does she think society is composed of, who runs society - mostly PARENTS!

We keep avoiding the truth: We are suffering because of our parents.  It was our parents that did all the bad things to us, no one else, our parents first, then other influential carers.  And even with all that Alice Miller says in her wonderful books we still refuse to get it - that everything that is wrong with us comes from conception through our forming years because of our parents unloving treatment of us.  Our parents don’t love us.  Your parents didn’t love you.  We have to one day wake up and fully accept the enormity of this, both individually and collectively.  Our parents might have loved us a little or even a lot, BUT THEY DIDN’T COMPLETELY LOVE US, THEY LET US DOWN, and because of that they’ve caused us all our problems.  We are dysfunctional BECAUSE OF OUR PARENTS.  And not because of the food we eat, the radiation we’ve been exposed to, the society we live in, the religion we belong to, the city we grew up in, sure, such things help us see we’ve got problems, but those problems are all resulting from our relationship with our parents, our relationships that weren’t true and completely loving.  And you might say, yeah well it’s a tall order to have completely loving relationships, our parents did the best they could under the circumstances, and yes, I am sure they did, however that still doesn’t excuse them, and it doesn’t make all that’s wrong with you go away.  You are still suffering because of what your parents did to you, no matter what the outside circumstances were.  And until you want to bite the bullet and face that truth; until you want to look into and heal all your Childhood Repression, you are going to keep doing yourself a great injustice by letting your parents off the hook and putting yourself down.  You’ll keep your parents in the power position, which is having power over you, and you’ll remain the powerless one, with you always being in the wrong whilst your parents are always right.

All those poor young girls don’t understand that the very people they want to feel loved by aren’t loving them truly.  They don’t understand that the very family they say they love and the very people who are meant to love them the most and more than anything in the world aren’t as they believe they are.  That they, like their parents, are living a fantasy, just like this woman psychologist who was studying these young girls.  Few people want to stop the game and deal with the truth, because they fear if they do then their relationships with their parents and family will disintegrate, which undoubtedly they will, because that shows and proves that the relationship is false anyway if it can’t bear such scrutiny.

So all we can do is our Feeling-Healing and Soul-Healing individually seeking the truth of our own problems; and if all the members of our family choose to do this then we can work though all our yuk together, and if not, well you’ve got to get on and do it for yourself.  And if there is any real and true love in your relationships with your family and parents it will remain as nothing can destroy true love, yet if your love is false, it will go leaving you with the truth of why it was untrue.

Facing the truth of our relationship with our parents is humanity’s greatest spiritual challenge, and one we keep putting off because we unconsciously know the truth is going to be pretty horrible.  So until you come down off your sacred mountain and out of your meditations and prayers; until you stop running away from the truth of yourself; until you reject your religion that keeps parents in the top spot, and face and deal with your own bad feelings looking to them for the truth of yourself and the truth of your relationships with your parents, then any such spiritual or religious exercise is only taking you further away from the truth of your soul.  So if you really want to be loving to yourself, then you’re going to have face the truth of your Childhood Repression.  As will you also if you are intent on spiritually advancing your soul in truth.  All else is avoiding the hard stuff, it’s going off further into your mind deluding yourself that you love your family and your parents loved you and you are a loving parent to your own children.  You’re not and they didn’t - face the ugly truth and then things in your life really will start making sense.  Then their will be fewer young suffering girls (and boys) who are so mixed up in their feelings all because they are trying to live against themselves; all because they are not allowed - so they unconsciously believe - to face and find out for themselves through their own feelings the truth they are actually living but refusing to acknowledge.  Their life is showing them loud and clear, they are sick, they can’t cope, they are breaking down, they are afflicted with all sorts of severe problems and disabilities, their feelings are screaming at them to take notice, to stop and uncover the truth - as hard as it might be to see - their feelings are trying to show them.

So our children keep suffering and society is to blame and the more we increase our technology dependence then that becomes the new culprit.  And there will always someone or something else to blame, all because we refuse to blame the very ones who need to be blamed.

Tuesday, 29 September 2015

Acting on your feelings verses talking about them first. Doing your Feeling Healing - healing sexual problems.


I recently uncovered the truth within myself through my feelings that I want a ‘sex friend’.  Over the years as my sexual stuff has surfaced in me I’ve had to admit to, face and accept my sexual fantasies, part of which has involved wanting a friend who just wants to have sex, and sex any time, and sex particularly when I want it - which is, in my fantasy, all the time.  However as I’ve got older the reality is even if sex was on tap twenty-four hours a day I wouldn’t be able to indulge that much in it, I’d physically not have the energy, not like when I was younger and believed I would have been able to - ha, ha.  And also, really, do I want to be having sex all the time and doing nothing else?  And a part of me screams - YES!, because I want all those nice feelings, and only those nice feelings, to be completely immersed in them with never a bad feeling.  YES, I want to escape into perpetual orgasmic bliss, to be consumed by the intensity of it, to never have to deal with any of the ordinary daily chores and boring life that isn’t SEX.

Over the past couple of weeks a growing desire within me being focused on a woman I find attractive has made me think I want to be with this woman asking her to be my sex friend, which of course in my fantasy she would eagerly agree to and off we’d go indulging to our hearts content.  And as the desire grew it bought up with it a lot of other issues, such as: do I really want to act out this desire, and it would have to be in secret, and what about Marion’s and my relationship, and could it just be sex without becoming more personally involved with this other woman, and what if she rejected me, or what if it started out okay then all went horribly wrong - what if she even got pregnant?  And as the days passed the desire to act on the feelings grew more intense, even though the woman it was focused on wasn’t in the state and knows nothing about my desires, they all being only my fantasy.

I doubt I would have ever acted on the feelings, I don’t think I have the courage, nor do I at this point want to compromise if not end my relationship with Marion.  So instead of acting on my feelings I talked about them to Marion.

So over a couple of days I talked and expressed all I felt trying to bring up and articulate all my fantasies and all the hidden feelings whilst longing all the time for the truth to be shown to me about why I was feeling such an intense desire.  And as with all such feeling expression the truth came, and one part of it was when the words came into my mind that I wanted a ‘sex friend’, and all that meant.  The words defined all I’d spoken to Marion about and all she’d help me to see about my feelings.  The words ‘sex friend’ sort of summed it all up - it was the truth of what I wanted, and I could see how it related back to a girl neighbour who was a couple of years younger than me when I was about nine or ten years old.  And her liking me and pulling her undies down and showing me herself secretly along the outside of her house, just her and me and our special moment together.  It’s only a vague memory now and I can’t remember anything more than feeling good about seeing her and being with her and her doing it with me.  I can’t remember if I suggested it to her or how it came about, and I don’t think I showed myself to her.  And I might have been even younger than I think I was - everything from my past being so vague.

However from speaking about my sex desire feelings I can see how her openness to me is what I really want - what I’ve always wanted, it turning more into sex as I got older, because sex was mostly something secretive and forbidden, that being what I wanted the most.  So I want my sex friend back, and to be able to keep going with her, for all I can remember there was only that one moment with her and no other girl when I was young.

And it’s her unconditional acceptance of me, her not smirking at or rejecting or humiliating or making me feel bad in anyway that I appreciate and want more of, all of course focused through sex.  But then having spoken about it all, incredibly all the desire evaporated and I no longer felt I wanted a sex friend, yet I do want the openness and acceptance, which Marion offers to me.  So I feel even better about being with Marion, especially with the sex stuff easing off again and for the moment not being part of what I want.

I feel so relieved at no longer feeling those intense feelings, I felt almost driven to act on the sexual desire the next time I met the woman, just to see what happened, sort of, nothing ventured nothing gained, as she could have only said no.  But what if she said yes...  I felt plagued by the exciting possibilities of being do daring and just doing it, as if I was just starting out on my sexual adventures in life rather than moving toward ending them.

And so what I realised was, as I looked back over my life and saw, just how many times I did feel such an overwhelmingly strong desire to do something, to act, and often I did, and not just sexually.  And mostly the things that resulted I was happy about, some also not so happy, and at other times I was quickly refused and rejected.  But I can now also see that each time I allowed myself to be led by those intense feelings, believing they were the way to go, the right way to live life - and how could I have not acted on them being so sure they were what I wanted anyway, I actually moved further away from my true self, deeper into my wrongness; I became progressively more bad - more evil.

And so this time around feeling again such intense feelings urging me to act, yet not doing so and instead talking and expressing all I felt whilst longing for the truth such feelings were there to help me see about myself, I could see that I took steps back to myself, lessening my wrongness, not being as bad and so not being as evil.  And of course I feel very good about this, this being what my healing is.

So I can see how all the way along my soul has brought up in me such intense feelings from time to time, and really it’s been asking me: Are you going to act on them and not speak about them, not wanting to uncover the truth of them, taking yourself further into your wrongness; or, are you going to embrace them and act on them by speaking about them, expressing them, as you long for their truth?  So simply: do you want to see the truth about yourself or not?

So as we know, our Feeling Healing is wanting to see the truth of ourselves through our feelings.  And our soul brings about the experiences and all the necessary feelings upwelling within us at those times when we are asked that question, and I think we all have very specific and definite times in our lives when we’re sort of at the crossroads of truth or no truth.  But until we understand about wanting the truth and how to get it using our feelings, we blunder unconsciously along taking ourselves further into our wrongness and so making life invariably harder for ourselves.


So it was all a good experience.  The intensity of the feelings almost driving me mad with desire at times to act on them, to just say stuff it, I can only give it a go and ask the woman, tell her what I’m feeling, tell her my fantasy and ask her does she want to participate in it with me.  And yet I also could feel whilst consumed by the feelings that it wasn’t really me, that I’m not really wanting that life, to be running off with the next woman I’m attracted to, and the next, just wanting them to be sex friends.  And it showed me again just how deeply embedded these needs, perversions and desires are within me, and all how they come from how I was treated by mum and dad.  The young girl from next door was only the result of deeper psychological influences from mum and dad, all of which I could also see as Marion and I talked about it all and all how we felt about each part of it; however such things are too complicated to write about, so I’m not even going to try, only to say that I could see once again how EVERYTHING within me comes from my early, and right into my earliest, involvement with mum and dad.

Sunday, 27 September 2015

Don’t obey God. Obeying God is obeying False God’s. Wake up, you’re being legged over! Love God without obeying God.


Obeying God is giving your power away - the power of your own love.  It’s wrong to obey anyone.  And it’s wrong to be made to obey.  Being threatened with punishment if you don’t obey, or being rewarded with praise if you do, is not right.  It’s damaging your soul.  We’re being mislead, we’ve got it around the wrong way.

As we read in Jesus’ prayer for the Divine Love in the Padgett Messages, God loves us, we are His children and He offers His love - the Divine Love - to us.  And we don’t have to do anything for it other than long to Him to fill our Soul with His love.  God is offering us His love and we can take Him up on His offer.  It’s as simple as that.

Saturday, 26 September 2015

God is all-loving according to Jesus, but how can that be if we’re all evil and unloving?


How can a loving God create evil; how can He allow and tolerate wrongness, cruelty and abuse, how can He allow anything bad?  And if He is Love and yet also creates unlove, what is that all about?  And to naively blame all that’s unloving and bad on Satan or the Devil or someone else other than God is just refusing to accept that God created the bad and made Satan and Lucifer rebel against Him.  Because God being God must be in control of everything.

Friday, 25 September 2015

God is our Divine and Heavenly Mother and Father. And we can have a very intimate and personal relationship with Them.


Doesn’t it feel nicer being able to relate to God as being both your Father and Mother?  That we can go to God, look to God, be at-one with God who loves us as our Mother and Father, who are the Parents of our soul.

Jesus says we can long to our Heavenly Father for His Divine Love.
Mary Magdalene says we can long to our Heavenly Mother for Her Divine Love.

So we can long to both of Them for Their Divine Love.

Try it.  In prayer or when you’re in a quiet moment, long to your Mother and Father for Their Love.  Ask Them for Their Divine Love.  Ask Them to love you, and to make you feel Their Divine Love coming into your heart and soul.

What is the point of life? What is the point of our lives? Why are we here? What’s it all about?


What is the point of life?
What is the point of our lives?
Why are we here?
What’s it all about?

The point still eludes us, even though it’s staring us in the face.  Yet until we embrace it, individually and collectively, nothing will ever change.

There are a number of points for us to consider, understand and accept.  They are all equally important.

Wednesday, 23 September 2015

Is your religion or spiritual system doomed to extinction?


All religions and spiritual systems not about Jesus and Mary Magdalene are doomed to extinction.  All that are about Jesus and not Mary, the same thing; and any that are about them both but don’t include doing ones Feeling-Healing or Soul-Healing with the Divine Love will also eventually fade away.  However it will take some time, and even though currently they might be increasing in numbers, still their writing is on the wall.

Monday, 21 September 2015

So many people believe they are to follow Jesus, but really we are to follow our feelings.



And following Jesus with your mind, by simply believing in Jesus, can be done whilst continuing to deny many of the bad feelings you feel throughout the day, all of which is actually working against yourself and stopping you from following the real person Jesus as Jesus wants to be followed.

Jesus says, ‘Follow me’ which means we are to follow along being as he is.  But the problem is Jesus is perfect and we are not.  We are going in the opposite direction to Jesus, which is why he said to follow him.  For if we strive to be as he is, then we’ll become perfect too - somehow.

Sunday, 20 September 2015

If you’re not living true to your feelings and looking for the truth they are trying to show you, then you’re missing the point of life.


Countless numbers of people have come and gone on Earth doing all they want to do, keeping busy by involving themselves in all what they feel is good and right for them, yet they’ve lived missing the point of what life really is all about.

And what really is the point of life - which I am happy to inform you now having thankfully found it out for myself, is what truth your feelings are trying to show you about yourself.

If anything I say makes you feel bad, then you’ve got work to do on yourself.



If anything I write, or for that matter, anything anyone says or does, makes you feel bad, then you can look to those bad feelings to uncover the reasons why you are feeling bad.  And this is how you grow in truth, and how you will heal all your wrongness.

So in your family, in your personal relationships, any time you feel bad, you can stop and focus on those bad feelings, allowing them fully have their say, and longing for the truth of them - wanting to know why you are feeling them, what are they wanting you to see about yourself.
And as many things will undoubtedly make you feel bad, then you’ll have a lot of work to do on yourself.  But all of that work is good as each time you feel bad and express those bad feelings more of your yuk will be coming out.  And eventually if you express them all, they will lead you to uncover the whole truth of yourself; healing yourself of all your wrongness, all so you will feel completely happy, loved and loving.

So next time you feel angry or something makes you feel bad, instead of trying to hit back and make it go away, how about taking it all on, going with those bad feelings and using them to look deeper into yourself.

It’s with and through our feelings that we get to know ourselves and one another.  We can’t get to know ourselves or each other with our minds.  And so if you’re blocking or refusing to allow yourself to feel all your feelings, then you’re not going to be able to get to know yourself or another person to the extent you possibly can.  Your relationships will remain largely superficial and so unsatisfactory with your mind having to do a lot of filling in the gaps so you can pretend that you are loving and in love and happy, more than you actually are.


Friday, 18 September 2015

How can you live a soul-led life? How can you live true to your soul? How can you know you are living in harmony with your soul? How can you know you even have a soul?


Our feelings are the key for us to live in harmony with our soul.  All disharmony we feel, such as any bad feelings, show we’re not living true to our soul.

It’s all rather easy, and it was never intended to be hard.  To be connected to or with your soul happens naturally when you are connected to and with your feelings, freely expressing them all as you feel them, and longing for the truth they are to show you.

Wednesday, 16 September 2015

Hating your parents is good for your spiritual growth. You won’t uncover the whole truth of yourself if you don’t allow yourself to hate them.


The biggest impediment to ones spiritual growth is the belief that we’re not allowed to hate our parents.  I know it’s the very opposite of what every spiritual and religious system says, however why are you not happy and satisfied with such systems, why are they failing so many people, and why is humanity racing towards its own destruction with such systems being in place for hundreds and thousands of years.  Surely they are part of the problem and not part of the cure.  So to find the cure, to truly help yourself, you’re going to have to go against what is said, look for something that is anti all that’s out there, and so begin by looking to hate your parents instead of loving them.  Many people say they love their parents, however is such love, true... or is it that it is what they want to believe, have to believe, were even forced to believe.  Is it love based solely on feelings, and true feelings at that, or is it love based on beliefs of ones mind?

To do your Feeling Healing you will need to confront all those aspects about your relationship with your parents and family you have been avoiding.  There is no other way if you sincerely want to uncover the whole truth of yourself.

Tuesday, 15 September 2015

The Religion of Family: How can your child love you when you’re making it feel bad?


Put yourself in your child’s place.  If someone is making you feel bad, do you love them?  If someone is making you feel unwanted, unloved, rejected, stupid, humiliated, ridiculed are you able to love them?  And why would you want to love them anyway - surely you’d hate them for treating you so badly.

So what is your child meant to do, it doesn’t want to hate its mother or father, it wants to love you, yet you are forcing it to not love you, to have conflicting feelings, to have bad feelings which it doesn’t want to have.  And what is a child to do when it feels unloved by its own parents?  How it is meant to react?  What sort of crisis does it find itself in?  And what happens when it’s in such a traumatic crisis many times a day - what does it do with such bad feelings, how does it get rid of them, and what happens if you the parent won’t let it express them?